Liam Neeson revealed a shockingly racist incident in an interview about his new film, “Cold Pursuit,” saying that years ago, after he found out a friend was raped, he cased the streets for a week hoping to kill any “black bastard” who crossed him.

The 66-year-old actor was talking with The Independent about how he got into character for his new role, and he recalled an apparent rape of someone close to him from “some time ago,” according to the news site.

He said he immediately wanted to know “what color” the perpetrator was. His anger boiled over, he said, and he spent a week carrying a baton and hoping that a random “black bastard” would antagonize him so he could “kill him.” He said he now feels ashamed about it.

Neeson’s camp hasn’t yet responded to the Independent article.